Oh man…

There’s just so much on my mind now! Lol kk just to list some stuff God taught/spoke/pointed out to me during the exam period:

1. Paul got a book from the library a few days back, and the title was quite interesting so I figured I’d take a read. It’s called ‘God explained in a taxi ride’ by Paul(Lol) Arden. Like the title says, I finished the book in no more than 10 minutes. It’d have probably been shorter, but the questions posed by Arden made me pause to think. A LOT. Here’s something to chew on:

“More blood has been shed over religion than any other issue.” – Pg 60 (Think the Crusades)

“Why does God need you to defend Him?

“It must be because you think you are more powerful than your God.

“If you think your God is weaker than you, that’s not much of faith.

Does it not follow, then, that people who fight wars for religion don’t have much faith?” – Pg 62

Make sense?

2. I remember a few days back I was watching ‘The Exorcism Of Emily Rose’ with my family to unwind after studying. I was expecting myself to be scared, excuse me, shitless. I assumed any movie with the word ‘Exorcism’ was bound to bring intense horror, but I found my faith in God strengthened instead. I kid you not. There was one part in the show I’ll always remember.(But I gotta admit I got kinda creeped out at some parts )

(watch the front bit)

“People say that God is dead, but how can they think that if I show them the devil?”

I’d like to believe that Emily’s story is real, because someone who is mentally ill to that extent that the prosecutors suggested couldn’t have written that letter. Emily’s story was one of great courage and self-sacrifice, choosing to suffer on earth just a while longer to tell the world one thing: God is real.

It didn’t matter to me that she was Catholic, cos we worship the same God. What stunned me was her decision to remain on earth. Some may believe the story is a hoax, etc. Tell me it isn’t true, Emily WAS mentally ill, whatever, I don’t care, because apparently I’m not the only one strengthened from her story(watch part 11, read the text, then tell me I’m wrong).

3. Got reminded of my conviction today. That I’m dancing for His kingdom. To give my all in psychology. To give my all in understanding the lives of poly students, and give my all to changing lives, even if it may only mean one.

For His kingdom, I will give my all, no less.

Oh man, sorry for the long post, but if you’ve read till here, thanks for your time

 

It’s good…

…to be able to surf the net, use the computer, etc. without the fear of upcoming exams.

…to have the burden of national exams lifted from my shoulders.

…to be able to just hang with the canoeists and buffet at Seoul Garden like nobody’s business! Heheh and just crap and catch up with each other! Just like the good ol’ times in Sec 2

…to be able to just vegetate, let my mind relax, expand, ‘remove unnecessary information like a computer deleting unwanted…’ …well the exams are over but hey, it came in handy

…to be able to dance like there’s no tomorrow.

…to pray to God without using the words “for the next paper”.

It’s good to be stress-free again. ‘O’s are out, holidays are in. Still feels surreal though :/

Can’t say I’m satisfied with how I did for my papers, cos I practically screwed up my Chem, Bio, Physics, English, A math, so I leave the rest in God’s hands. Learnt quite a lot during off-com mode, hopefully I’ll be able to retain it

But…

It’s good to be back

 

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!

IT’S ALMOST OVER!!!! YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!

I can taste the end.

After next week, it’s nothing but vegetating for a while.

Vegetate.

Stone.

Waste my life away? I think not.

I realised if someone likes to stone, if it helps relaxation, then it can’t really be non-constructive, cos it helps the mind and body, well, relax and reduces stresses(duh…). Well, at least it’s another way of looking at it :/

So if you see me stoning/staring into blank space/etc., don’t stop me.

 

Thanks God

…For keeping me alive for 16 years

…For mum and dad, who’ve put up with me for 16 years

…For gor and Paul, who’ve laughed, cried and shared almost every other experience with me for 16 years(well 14.5 years for Paul anyways )

…For placing all the people in my life in my life, for they’ve made it so much more colourful and enjoyable, and making me feel so loved

…For blessing me with so many things, that I can’t begin to name

…For mum again, for buying nutella so that I can eat it for breakfast

…For Kiok Yew and Marc for dropping by my house while I was out to drop off my presents(Mind you they bought 10 bars of chocs, at least 100g each, 1 for each day until ‘O’s, that’s 1+kg and FBT outfit,XL of course they know me so well :’) )

…For giving me the ability to lead such a blessed life

…For Gerald and Cassandra to drop by unannounced to celebrate with us

…For the pizza dinner that came along with it and the mahjong

…For the first birthday cake in 11 years

…For the awesome Etnies shoes mum got me

…For giving me such a blessed first 16 years of my life

Thanks God so much for this blessed birthday

 

11 days…

T_T

T_T

T_T

study study study…

Lord I pray for all those preparing for their ‘O’s, that they may really do their best in these few days.

AMEN!

 

Blessed

Heheheh managed to sneak this post in ARGH! MUST STUDY HARDER!

Yesterday was just one of those days. It really got me thinking “What did I do to deserve this?”

I’m so thankful that I could finish more revising more than half my geography textbook in the morning Thankful that Bunchana, Allan, Kiok Yew, Yang Zhi, Joel and Zheng Yang came down even though they still had exams the next day Thankful that Joel was able to lead worship not as badly as he thinks(I think ) Thankful that Zheng Yang(WELCOME TO THE FAMILY!!!) was able to join us for his first CG(which was damn fun ) Thankful that I could get to know Zheng Yang more Thankful that I had so much fun spending time with Bunchana, Ming Wei and Zheng Yang at Warren Golf and Country Club(really awesome place, that) Thankful that dad bought me chicken essence to help me study And that he also came back with CHOCOLATE!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS!!!!

Man, what did I do to deserve this?

I thank God for placing all these people in my life and making the day so enjoyable! Praise Him!

 

Trust

Where has it gone?

Just yesterday I was studying in the library like a good boy should. I came back pretty late at around 7.30, was having dinner and relaxing in front of the computer screen. Then my phone buzzed at 9.30, and I saw a message from my older brother saying he wasn’t going to come home for dinner, ‘cos he was out watching Phobia 2 with his friends. I thought ‘ah well whatever’.

Apparently I thought wrong.

My mum came back and she instantly gave me a look of disapproval, then a look of realisation dawned on her face. When I asked her what the matter was, she recounted how she was having dinner with her brother just a few hours before.

Ok: She saw the message.

Still ok: She saw who it was from.

Bad: She misread the sender, thinking it was me who sent the message.

“Aiya you see this boy, ‘O’ levels so near still go out watch movies. Haiz…”, she told my uncle.

T-T My rep’s gone. Fried. Vaporised. Obliterated. GG-Fied.

Ah well, build character, not rep

 

Too good

God has been too good to me. I definitely do not deserve the 16 points for prelims (I expected 20+). I ended up with only 1 C, better than all my years in SJI.

Yet, I’ve been taking His blessings for granted. I’ve ignored all that He’s been trying to show me. I’ve been complacent to the point of hardly noticing His presence in my life. I find myself forgetting more and more that He is always right beside me, waiting for me to talk to Him like a loyal friend tagging along, waiting to be noticed. My response? Look the other way.

Sounds stupid, I know, but that’s what’s been going on.

God, I’m so sorry. I thank You for all Your blessings, as unworthy as I am to receive them. God, I want to be more aware of You, Lord.

 

Impossible?

Saw this on the MRT screen thingy at the station while waiting for the train:

‘It is difficult to say what is impossible, for the dream of yesterday is the hope of today and the reality of tomorrow.’ – Robert H. Goddard.

What is your dream for tomorrow? Let it be a big one, for it just may be a reality

*Lotsa chocolates at home...YEEEEEEEEAH!!!!

 

Am I…?

Just yesterday I had a huge breakfast in Little India with my family, and all I have to say is… Authentic Indian food is FRGGIN IMBA! MAN! It tastes awesome. Never loved a vegetarian meal more man… =P =b =d

But before that, when we were driving around in the car, looking for a parking lot in the rain (it’s extremely stressful, by the way) and we managed to park in Park Royal’s carpark. When my dad drove up to the barrier, however, it didn’t budge. At first I thought my dad overlooked the fact that there wasn’t a IVU card reader (for those who don’t know what that is, it’s the thing you put the cashcard in). Eventually, after 10 seconds, he realised it and wound down his window to slot his cashcard in to the machine.

It’s amazing to see how technology has revolutionised the way we live, and in such a short time too. Automated IVU card readers were only a recent addition to carparks in malls, etc. They appeared, what, 5 years ago? Already we’ve begun to take this much more convenient way of paying for parking for granted.

I realised that there were many things in my life that I took for granted, sometimes it’s the fact that I’m fortunate enough to be provided with a quality education, which leads me to take up a heck-care attitude towards studying. Most of the time it’s the relationship I agreed to have with God. It’s always ‘God is gracious/merciful/forgiving/etc.’ and I tend to take things like QT and shepherding lightly.

God! Please give me more of these reminders! Help me keep You on top of my priority list! I don’t want to take You for granted! Help me learn to appreciate and cherish what I have! Please help your son Amen.

P.S. I’d like to wish the Feetwashers the best in tomorrow’s match and Zachary an early but very happy 14th birthday

P.P.S. I got chocolate chips sprinkled on chocolate sauce-drizzled chocolate ice cream on a chocolate fudge cake.

P.P.P.S. Can it get any better? It most definitely can: Top it off with a Ferrero Rocher.

P.P.P.P.S. The best part? I’m eating it